ipad and blogging

the ipad is crap for blogging. i'm typing this on the laptop instead.

walked yesterday for an hour. i want to do this every day as a base.

i'm currently on holidays at the moment down the gold coast. tell you what, this is the environment to get fit in. no fat bastards down here, let me tell you. all the young people are impossibly fit looking. and effortlessly i would wager. they spend their time outdoors, in the sun and surf, shagging each other and getting pissed.

the opposite to the corporate life. what a disaster that life is. i watched a cool medical youtube clip the other day. basically it was telling you to exercise to improve your health. but it came across better than that. one point they made was that watching TV increased risk of death and other health problems.

well, we could have guessed that.

i felt pretty good about it as i don't watch much tv, at least not at the moment. nothing like the 5 hours a day or whatnot they said would send you to an early grave (or something like that).

but then they made the point that SITTING IN FRONT OF A COMPUTER WAS THE SAME RISK PROFILE.

So instead of being smug i was horrified. I've basically spent 8 hours a day or more in front of a computer since 1998.

effectively watching fucking TV for 12 or 13 fucking years straight.

wow. what a headspin. we are not designed to sit on our fat arses all day watching TV (or the computer). It makes us sick. It kills us.

And I've been doing it.

I hardly move at work. I just sit in an office, or walk between offices.

Wow. Fucked up. This is becoming a bit of a rant, but you know what drives it here, in Australia? The cost of property. That's what makes us have to chase the cash, and end up sitting in front of a TV for 12 or 13 fucking years every day.

Cash.

No cash. No house. And houses cost a fucking bomb.

I've been thinking a lot about cash recently. I haven't spoken about it in the past much, but I really dislike my job. Have since 1999. Yep. Since 1999. Drives me mental. It's boring. The people are FUCKWITS. I have had to borrow a lot of money to have it (over 600k). And it stresses the shit out of me.

I get a good return on the money, for now. But it's like a game of musical chairs really. I could lose the 600k if the business folds.

I don't yet own my house outright.

anyway this is off track. Bottom line is my professional life has fucked, and is fucking, with my health - both mental and physical. If your mental health is fucked it fucks with your physical health also.

So where to from here? Well, I'm still trying to do outdoor type things. I've ordered the kayack, and it should come next week. I've done some ocean swimming, which was extrodianry really - 2k out in the sea.

I'm also going to build a big fucking garden and grow healthy food. i've ordered some bricks and dirt and they arrive next week also.

My financial/stress issue is whether I put all my eggs in my holiday home basket (currently 100% owned by the Bank) by selling my main house (3/4 owned by me) and other investment house (100% owned by the Bank, and NEGATIVE EQUITY) and just have one debt on one house and plan on paying that off and then fucking off down the coast for a quiet life.

Or do I keep up the work for another say 5 years and perhaps be in a better position financially.

it's a risk exercise. risk of me having a complete fucking meltdown (unlikely), risk of me sliding further downhill mentally effectively not enjoying my time (probable), risk of me not improving health as much as I need to (probable), risk of property market crashing and taking me down with it (who knows?????) and risk of firm going broke and fucking up my 600k which would send me bankrupt (who knows????).

so again in summary, my work choices are: sell everything and pay off dream coast house with aim of becoming a hermit growing own food and working as little as possible, or continue on big dollar and higher risk hoping for more wealth in the future.

anyway that's a lot of crap but I'm writing this for me, not you. Its something I have to make a decision on though or it will be made for me.

goals today then are that walk, a swim, and healthy food.